I used to be a prepper/ or thats what I told everyone else.

A long time ago, well at least 12 years ago I worked in the middle east as a freelance soundman mainly doing news. It was a crazy time, I met some crazy,weird,strange people. I also met some amazing lovely sweet individuals. I can assure you I wasnt, I discovered that a war zone or conflict zone worked really well with my BPD and my ADHD.  I loved it I felt at peace with the chaos around me, well at least in my head it felt that way. So to cut a long story short, I made friends with a guy who was and is a prepper. A prepper is some one who basically has food and equipment and survival gear for all eventualities. Yes including the zombie apocalpyse.  I made it back to England after 8 long years in the middle east. I was a basket case thats for sure. But as time went on I found the idea of prepping to be very stressful, I couldnt bare the idea of having a flat full of gear food candles tents sleeping bags etc etc. What really convinced me not to bother was the show the walking dead I realised that with my mental health issues and at the time my terrible arthritis (that I had done nothing about) I was zombie food. It didnt help that a show called dark skies about alien invasion was also on the tv. Well eventually I would wake up in the night, I would tweak the curtains to make sure zombie aliens were not walking the streets. I dont do apocalypse or the end of the world, perhaps thats the problem now, I tried not to buy extra food Im certainly not panicking but its amazing to watch how people behave in the supermarkets. Today just to see empty shelves in some of the super markets. It is not the end of the world, we are not all going to die. Dont go shopping and leave nothing for the people behind you, I know its difficult because the person ahead of you probably didnt leave much for you. Our humanity is a bit screwed up. We need to stop breathe relax then just do a normal shop.