Confusion.

The last three or four days have been difficult for me, I have fallen back on an old habit of being unkind to myself but verbalising it. Kate had several times rebuked me kindly. I realise that the camino is turning a corner, the homeward stretch beckons. It is as if I want to prepare myself for my old ways and habits. I have had the opportunity in the last two days to walk for some of the walk alone. Today especially. My head is clearer, I wonder if I am giving myself a hard time as my past drifts away from me, one last bashing before I am free of the old. Unfortunately its probably more complicated than that, but even when the Camino is over. I have an even greater duty to myself to continue the work and change I have begun. As they say “change comes from within”. Still changes to make.